Life Adventure Awaits You

i am a creature of habit.
i love being comfortable.
i love knowing what's going to happen next.

in my high school years, i realized how boring i was.
i came across this epiphany as i was driving to and from school.
if point A is my house
and point B my school,
there are many many ways for me to get to point B from point A, and vice versa.

i noticed... that i only took one route. one and only route.
that was the first route i ever took and that was the only route i took.

when i realized that i can take OTHER routes,

and when i did take the other route,
i somehow felt uncomfortable... but at the same time, it felt exhilarating.

this is just one small example of how i live my everyday life.

i also realized i am very solid, loyal, and constant.
that's my cover for being timid, afraid, and boring.


as time passed, i hoped to break out of that comfort zone.

but it was only good for hoping; i never experienced full freedom from fear of trying new things.

fear of failure,
fear of loss,
fear of change,
fear of unfamiliarity,
fear of everything and anything

i still have this great fear. i never got over it
and i think i will have this until i die.

i also have this secret longing to liberate myself from that...
and
try new things
experience the unexplored
visit random places
live life instead of living in fear

however, something's been holding me down;
shackled my ankle to my comfort zone.

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but now i have something in my heart that i didn't have before.

i have a strong desire today to put my foot down.

i believe that God is with me so whom shall i fear?
what would stop me when my God is with me?

when moses led the israelites out of Egypt,
God was with him through good and bad.
He always provided.
food, water, shade, warmth, protection

but when he died, joshua had to take on all the baggage.

i imagine that must have been a burden.
he probably wasn't 100% comfortable to take on this new life.

but in Joshua 1, God himself encourages Joshua, telling him...
"I got your back, son. I got your back."

Joshua 1:7-9

⁷ “Be strong and very courageous. Be careful to obey all the law my servant Moses gave you; do not turn from it to the right or to the left, that you may be successful wherever you go.
⁸ Keep this Book of the Law always on your lips; meditate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do everything written in it. Then you will be prosperous and successful.
⁹ Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go.”

Maybe... just maybe,
i should embrace the life adventure that awaits me.

i need to women up.
get out of my comfort zone
knowing that my future is in God's hands.


Here i come:
getting a new apt
studying for OATs
applying to graduate school
standing up for myself
making big decisions using the discernment that comes from God...