Palm of Your hands

one of my favorite praise song of all time is

hillsong's With All I Am.

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into your hand
i commit again
all I am
for you lord

you hold my world
in the palm of your hand
and I'm yours forever

CHORUS
Jesus I believe in you
Jesus I belong to you
you're the reason that I live
the reason that I sing
with all I am

I'll walk with you
wherever you go
through tears and joy
I'll trust in you

and I will live
in all of your ways and
your promises forever

I will worship I will worship you forever
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I love the entire song...

but the part where it touches me in the most concrete way is

when it says...

you hold my world in the palm of your hands

this part always blows me away every time i sing it, hear it and think about it.

first of all....

right now, my world is very disorganized and uncertain.

after my dad resigned, my family has taken a wild route

in which we have no direction nor any knowledge of.

for the first time, my parents are going to be separated from me.

for the first time, i have to grow up from their shelter and live like an adult.

(although... this step has been long overdue b/c my parents spoil me.. haha)

for the first time, i am going to be alone. even more scary... stand alone.

this change in my life honestly scares the UNIVERSE out of me. i am not a big fan of change.

just thinking about it makes me toss and turn, sleepless at night.

but i must remember, God hold my world in the palm of His hands and

all i have to do is commit myself to Him.

then i am His forever.

When i am His, He never leaves me nor forsakes me. i won't be alone.

secondly...

i am selfish. i only walk with God, when i want to or when i need him.

i get angry, disappointed and discouraged when i see that God is making me walk through hardships. i question His purpose and ask that He deliver me away from the predicament.

second verse of this praise is the true desire i have in God...

i will walk with you... where ever you go...

through tears and joy.

because of my selfish nature, i only desire to walk with God through joys. not the tears. i say.. "God, leave me alone if you are walking through tears. i want nothing to do with it"

i really hope and pray that this second verse becomes my confession and life testimony.

and i will trust Him and live in all of His ways.

right now, this praise is my remedy and comfort and escape from all the mumble jumble i am going through.

i hope you, too, may find true peace in God knowing that we are in the Palm of His hands.

Isaiah 49:16a

¹⁶ See, I have engraved you on the palms of my hands...